Perhaps this is just a mood, or maybe I’m finally growing up. But I think there comes a time when you really need to get over old wounds, stop reliving them, and just let it go. In that spirit, I have been set on the path to make amends. (Yes, set on the path, by a dear old friend.)
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not becoming one of those feel-good, “love everyone” kind of people. I will still get my Julia Sugarbaker righteous indignation when I or a loved one is wronged. BUT, I am trying to be better, and will try very hard to not be so freakin’ judgemental. (I said TRY.)
(Tangent: And no, this does not cover a current situation I am in, whereupon my heart is ripped open every single time I think of it. I have loved, I have lost, and I don’t like it one bit. I’m not mad because I lost the romantic love; I am crushed because I am being forced to give up what was once a huge part of my existance.)
I am tired of the past haunting me, and the future being so scary and the present feeling like I’m suffocating. It’s time to forgive, admit what I have done, address what they have done, make amends, and let it go. Then to leave it up to the other parties involved, and either move forward as friends, or to at least get the past resolved and agree to go on toward our separate paths. Either way, forgiveness needs to be big in my life, not only to forgive others, but to forgive myself.
Anybody got any ideas on how to go about this?